OH...MY...GOD

I just had the best fish and chips ever =) I love Lent, because the grocery stores and churches have fish dinners each week!

What an awesome day. ::is being a huge fatty::

I have to apologize to those who wished me a happy birthday...I must have entered it wrong when I signed up, but my 22nd birthday isn't untill March 9th.  Sorry for the confusion ^_^;;

I used to love Christmas, until I turned 18 and everyone expects me to buy gifts for everyone. I suppose I wouldn't mind so much if I wasn't broke. Brian and I have about 4-5 more things to buy.

Brian still needs to get his car inspected. It was due at the end of November. He's been putting off doing it because he's certain it won't pass and he doesn't want to pay to the headlight repaired and the tires replaced until we are done shopping for everyone. I keep bugging him, telling him that the fines for driving an uninspected car are substantial, but I suppose I'm just as guilty as he is for not  forcing him. I don't even know what will happen when we take it in? Will they call the fuzz and have them take away his license? I doubt that, but I'm still worried.

I have a huge ass pay check coming in on Friday. I'm not bragging, I worked an 80 hour week to get it. With the way taxes work, though, it won't be double my normal check, it'll probably only be like 50% more. So lets hope we can make it to Saturday when we can go get it inspected.

In other news, Brian bought me something and he's being mean and won't tell me what it is.  We played 20 questions, but he didn't play by the rules and counted each of my guesses as a question. I know its electronic, runs on battery power, is bigger than a loaf of bread and some other stuff. Whatever it is, its totally unexpected, since, even though I bought him an XBox 360 on Black Friday (with some help from his parents, of course), I unselfishly told him not to get me anything.

I bid on a Loli dress for myself, even though it was probably a bad idea. I only bid up to 20 and won't go above that. I guess its a Christmas present to myself. Haha. I'm sort of excited about that, except I'm worried about how I'll look in it. I'm a short fatty-chan. I'm all torso too, so I always wear mini skirts or long skirts, because anything that hits around my knees makes my legs look short as hell. I wonder how the other short lolitas get away with it.

I'm sorry for boring anyone who is reading this.

I'm so glad I'm done with that 80 hour week! I know, I'm stupid for picking up so many hours, but the idea of all that money sounded so good in my head.

So now I actually get to sleep 8 hours. =)

I registered for classes and finally told the nursing school I won't be attending. It makes me sad that I can't go, but the gas would just be too much. At least I get half of my registration fee back. I don't mind going to community college for another year or so. I talked to my mom about it the other day. I told her how I was so embarassed because all my friend would graduate before me, and she told me I can't compare myself to them. I have a real job, a good car and I live on my own with my own money. Which is true. Honestly, I make more than the average high school graduate (brag brag) so I'm not in a super big hurry to graduate.

Pineford has stick another notice on Brian's windshield telling him to move his van because its registration is expired, which is silly because he already showed them proof that it was up to date. I think he just needs to get rid of it, but he's a fucking pack rat.

I aplogize for the serious whining I'm about to do.
I don't know what I want to be when I grow up! (I'm 21)

I think what started this whole spiral of uncertainty was failing that remedial math class twice. It really fucked up my academic self esteem. I mean, I was in community college for Pete's sake. After the second F in MATH 020, I said fuck it, and quit. I had to find some other way to finish school.

I got accepted to LPN school. Woo hoo! The only problem is that its in Lancaster (about an hour car ride each way) So thats a no-go.

But I wonder if I should be going to Nursing school anyway. My boyfriend makes fun of me because I don't know what I want to do once i get out of school. He knows what he wants. He wants to work with computers. He knows he can do it because he can put together a working computer in 5 minutes, and because he has become the unofficial tech support at his warehouse job.

Which makes me wonder: Is there something I do well that I could turn into a career. I can sew, but there aren't any jobs in fashion design. Same with singing. I like to pride myself on my practicality.

For my reference, here is my list of "dream" careers, starting Sophomore year of high school.

Spanish Teacher
Lawyer
Fashion Designer
Psychologist
Occupational Therapist
Nurse
????
Profit!

I would have stayed on a pre-law track, had I not realized how horrible the whole legal system is. It makes me sad, because I LOVED my paralegal classes until I took Family Law.

So next semester I will once again be attending Harrisburg Area Community College (HACC) and will once again brave that dreaded Beginning Algebra class. One of my room mates is an excellent Math tutor. Its what he gets paid to do. He helped me pass the LPN test. I think mostly I just need to study and actually ask questions in class.

We'll see where the spring semester takes me. Maybe I'll have a new dream in 08.

When I researched gallbladder surgery, I found many sources that told me I'd be up and moving around almost instantly. That was the biggest fattest lie ever. I've been in so much, the farthest I could go was to the patio for a smoke. Blah. At least I have a couple of days off work.

How often does someone post that as a title to a post? I'm sorry. I can't help it. I have once again failed a math test that I failed last semester.  I really worry about my future sometimes. Brian has been helping me study and I thought I understood how to factor polynomials inside and out this time around >_<

ZOMG ANSGT!!

Woo hoo! It sure feels good to be on LJ again. =D